When’s the Right Time to go All In?
Do you ever bury yourself in something like a hobby or craft when you aren’t content with your everyday life? That’s what baking was for me. Before I did anything I do now, I didn’t know how to picture myself with a career in baking, so I simply stuck to it as a hobby to escape my mental negativities from my job.
Something I’ve always managed to do is make any situation work. Subconsciously, I’ll know that I have to do what it takes to make it. I think a problem I’ve faced the last year as my personal business ventures have done better is that subconsciously, I know that I don’t have to give it my all because I still have another job, so I’m not doing everything possible to make this work on its own. Taking that leap of faith and leaving my job has scared me since I conceived the thought a little over a year ago when I decided that I really did want to pursue my personal business as my one and only career. I was always scared to leave my job because of money. What if I have a slow month and don’t make enough? Well, that’s when my subconscious kicks in and I end up doing way more than expected because I know I need to. I’m past the point of worrying about what anyone else says about my choices, especially this one. If you live your life worrying about what anyone else thinks, you aren’t even living your own life, you’re living theirs.
If I want to keep doing what I’m doing, which is starting to finally pay off in terms of money and my skill level, then I will reach a day, probably rather soon now, where I have to face my fears and pull the plug on my job. At this point, all I’m doing now is calling out of every trip and maybe working one trip a month to get me an extra $1000 or so. If I am as good at my craft as everyone says, how hard could it be to make that $1000 a month doing more of my own thing? Selling desserts? Working freelance for food writing and photography? With the Fall and Winter holidays approaching, I’m going to reach a point when I don’t have time to do anything else but my own business, seeing how last year I did really well in December alone and didn’t even work as much as I could have. I’m not going to keep calling out of every trip for the next 5 months. What’s the point? It’s not like that goes unnoticed. I’m not doing the company or myself any good by clinging onto a job for money I could be making other ways that relate to my career.
Is it risky to post this online? Of course it is. But you never know who is out there going through the exact same thing. I’ve gone over this in my head too many times to count, and it’s even at the point where it’s in my head every single day, almost all day. I have internal struggles and still face personal obstacles when it comes to pursuing this career. It feels like I’ve been doing it so long, so why am I not making more money? Well, now it’s obvious. I haven’t given myself enough ways to make money. I haven’t been all in. So if not now, then when?
